Failure as a parent

Failure as a parent - contd.

Following up on yesterday's post, I detected that my child falls in the "highly sensitive" category.

I will share more details of what it means to me and how I will tackle it. But more importantly. it feels that I have passed it on to him.

This could be a lifelong issue with my life partner and me. She accuses me of being responsible.

I understand it can be my fault. But did I have a choice? Or did I inherit from my parents (probably my mother?).

Anyway, that's not the root point of the discussion. Whatever it is, I need to face it and figure out a solution.

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