Sometimes I feel like shit

 Today is one of those days when I feel like shit. 

I feel I have wasted my entire life. 

I could have been better. I would have earned more. 

I could have done a lot of things.

But right now I am just helpless. 

I don't want to be helpless. Probably, I need a mentor but no mentor will guide me. I am a heavy kite that can go out of control in strong winds and lesser winds won't work for me. 

I need to work on something.

Please tell me, do you have any idea?